A taste of bitterness

As i was auscultating one of my more bitter friends i myself got infected with this, bile.

Been a while since i felt this. I can only describe it as a loss of energy, loss of momentum.

The fires that shone so brightly yesterday is now a mere flicker, barley keeping me warm, if only, i had a source of warmth.

Have I run out of fuel? and if so, where do you stop for some? And thou I know its an illousion, there seems to be none to be had. In this wasteland of mine.

I'm missing a basic need.
I need someone to care about me.

It will be back tomorrow, my flame. But right now, I am sad. Right now, I am weak. Right now, my soul is in need of another souls touch.

And right now there is noone in sight

Math!

Svåååååååårt!

motivation and senseless positivity

Here we go again.
A new year is dawning and I am feeling great!

No big special circumstances but only my own mind flying aroud, seeing endless possibility,

And now, m going towards the classroom, school is about to begin.
A big exam comin up, and I need to study HARD (bcus m lazy) but it'll b alright.

check out this, my new project, tickets already bought ;) (let me know if u wanna come and ll arrange it, (800:- + food, yep thats all u need folks!)

http://www.trance-energy.nl/te2009/site/

Hugs all around. :), yes , even you bitter persons can have some.

och för att liva upp stämningen litet :)

i guess this is normal life

There's a blue bird at my window
I can't hear the songs he sings
All the jewels in heaven
They don't look the same to me

Press my face up to the window
To see how warm it is inside
See the things that I've been missing
Missing all this time

It's only lies that I'm living
It's only tears that I'm crying
It's only you that I'm losing
Guess I'm doing fine

Edge

The edge is so far away,
but now and then it comes close.
I smile to this movement, because it means life and movement is there.
To fall, deep deep deep, would be scary, and you'd hafto traverse the water that's in the way.

What would the winnings be, the losses and what would you miss from the side you are standing on now and what would you never miss again?

There is only one way to find out, and whatever you do, never lose the exploring spirit. If you ever lose it, go look for it again or you wont ever be able to travers any waters, only if the other side comes close enought for you to step over with your feet dry. (and yes the other side can be just as good even if the waters big)

Waiting for this to happen or waiting for the water to dry out, wouldnt that impede your own progress?.

This is my filosophy, everyone has their own, and some of us dosen't have the luxury of relaxed contemplation in these matters.

I dont really know what i wanted to say here, but i am speaking my mind, and that is enought, for now.



Emedan jag skrev detta snubblade jag på den här videon.
*ödet är på min sida med
*och korten
*o regnguden

Stir

Något som stått stilla ett tag har börjat röra på sig. Rörelsen är så sakta att jag knappt märker den, det verkar som jag är i en sånningadär "fas" full med oväntade händelser. Kanske kan något komma utav detta =)
jag har varit gladare än mitt normalglada jag på sistone. Tack för det ni som känner er berörda
Mjau

De delar av soppan som stått lite stilla på siståne har börjat röra sig, saaaakta =)
sakta rör sig degvändaren
polkagrismassan vevar och svänger
mitt leende hittar du i mitten



Dreeeemaa, you know you are a dreeemaa
D,d,d,d,d,d,d,d, Dreeeeeemaa!
common dream, dream along.



Ps. Jag funderar på att bli musiklärare med =)