She struck a nerve, one of my sensitive ones,
A part of my history of lying as a child and a patch of bad communication made her say that she would not date me anymore untill she could trust me, not that we could not be friends.
Atleast she meant it, but I in spite of staying, was tensed up the rest of the evening.
When I got home and could relax I cried, Singing mournfull kanon with a siong I really like I could finally relax enought to cry out loudly.
Once again I stumble because of my own history, me, being slightly unfitting for the reality I inhabit.
Tomorrow is a new day, and a new chance,
I hope that I will have the elbowgrease and patience to make this work.
Nothing much has happened but something big has happened
